Saturday, November 06, 2010

Empty Nest

It's taken me about a week to sort through my feelings enough to write about graduation last Sunday. I feel like a mother whose children have all grown up and moved away...an empty nest, so to speak. Only my kids will never call and there'll be no holiday visits. While I am very proud of every one of them, I'm also very scared for them. I don't know where they're going or who will be there to greet them. While they were here I felt like we could protect them from the hopelessness of poverty, the heartache of a broken family or the pain of illness. I know it was naive but I just knew that they were happier, healthier and safer here with us than out in the scary world they came from. So, I just couldn't understand why they were so excited and jubilant for this day to come. Sure, I know kids always look forward to the last day of school, but don't they know they may never see eachother...or me...again? Aren't they devastated or paralyzed with fear like me? I just couldn't wrap my brain around the fact that they would want to leave this beautiful, peaceful place....or me. But they did. One by one I have watched them drive away with family, friends and caretakers. And each time it's like they take another little piece of me with them.

And so here I am...an empty nest mom. I know that they do not go alone and the Lord is protecting them and I know that God could reunite us one day, but it's hard to see that through the blur of my tears. Even as I look at my own son, I cannot help but think that he is already looking forward to the day where he too will venture out into the scary world without me. I have poured my whole self into this ministry for over two years and now it's over and I feel empty. Several people have tried to console me by telling me that we have made a difference in these young lives. While that may be true, I can't see past the gift they have been in my life. Their ministry to me has changed me forever and I am so grateful for this little bit of time God has allowed me to spend with them. I loved them before I ever met them and I go on loving them even when my nest is unbearably empty.

So, here they are...my kids on graduation day.

Me and Frankie

CT, Arle and Luis Miguel

Justo and Gelbert

Rusbel

Santiago, Gervin, Darwin and Dayer

Eldar, Jose Elias, Jorge, Santiago and Rusbel

Joe Daniel, Cristian Ariel, me and Luis Gerardo

William and PK

Milton and Bismar

Me and Jorge

Me and Fernando

Jose Daniel and CT


Frankie, PK and Victor

Edwin, Joel, Eldar and Gervin

Henry

Elvis Renan

Dayer

Jose Elias

Frankie

Gelbert

Rusbel

Marvin

Elias

Bismar

Rommel

Darwin

Fernando

Graduates of primary and vocational

Rommel

Bismar

Elvis Renan

Darwin

Henry and AT

Elvis Renan and Me

Elvis Renan

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

KellyFaith Meets the President

The president of Honduras made a visit to El Sembrador last week along with a large entourage of security. Apparently, security is a little more relaxed in Honduras than in the U.S. and I was able to snap some photos. If this president ever commits some atrocious crime against humanity, I am probably going to regret posting these. But since I know nothing about Honduran politics and I'm just in it for the celebrity factor, here they are.

PK and CT with Pepe Lobo, the president of Honduras

The whole family meets the president.

Our students and staff get a chance to pose with the president.

The El Sembrador guys and the president of Honduras